This may be a little TOO honest for some people....but I hope I don't lose any friends or followers over this post.
So, first confession: I am so RELIEVED whenever hubby leaves for work. Things have been so tense around here, that when he leaves it's like a mini-vacation for me.
Awful, right? I think I totally FAIL at being a wife.
Confession number two: Sometimes I fantasize about running away - all by myself, just starting over where no one knows me.
Horrible. I fail at being a mommy too.
Hubby started his leave tonight, and will be around A LOT for the next few weeks. This will either be a very good thing, or will be very, very bad.
My old positive self seems to have disappeared, and my negative self is trembling in fear at what this leave will bring.
And the biggest confession: no matter how much I love my husband (and I always will) right now I really don't LIKE him very much at all. Sometimes I think I might even hate him.
Actually, what I really hate is deployment. And reintegration.